Saat Itu - Part 2

8.30 am: Doktor dtg and dia checked perut, dia kata rahim sy tak mengecut. X tau apa prosedur yg dia buat tapi dia seluk la kat bawah tu and kata dia kena keluarkan  darah beku. Sakitnya yg amat, sampai sy terjerit2. Lepas tu dia kata dia akan bg ubat kecutkan rahim thru IV drip and sy kena keep breastfeeding the baby utk cepatkan proses kecut rahim. Kul 10 am, cik HB and twins dtg melawat and baby pon dah dihantar ke bilik sy. Masa tu I could feel darah mcm keluar byk sgt, sampai lencun kain batik but still I thought nothing. Sampai la nurse dtg balik and kata dia nak bawa sy gi toilet utk kencing. Tapi bila dia tgk kain batik penuh darah, diaorg pon terkejut and tanya sy boleh berdiri ke. At that time sy still rasa ok tapi bila try nak berdiri mmg nampak everything black and rasa nak tumbang. So cepat2 nurses tu baringkan sy, and tau2 keadaan mcm panik aje sbb tiba2 ada ramai nurses berlari2 dtg bilik. Cik HB and anak2 disuruh tunggu kat luar bilik. 

I was really weak at that time, x tau pon apa benda yg diorg buat kat sy. Tapi bila one of the nurse seluk bawah, mcm nak mati sakitnya. Nurse kata ada darah beku lagi dlm rahim sy. Then doktor datang, check lagi sekali dan suruh nurse tolak sy masuk labor room balik sbb dia nak check rahim sy. Masa tu sy mmg rasa takut sgt, dok fikir 'aku nak mati ke ni?' 

Mujur la diorg bg cik HB temankan sy and sikembar lak mak sy jaga kat bilik. Sy dah start nangis masa tu and fikir for the worst aje. Masa doktor check balik and seluk segala, mmg sakit teramat, sy cuma survived dgn gas kat mulut and pegang tangan cik HB kuat2 dan ingat Allah. X tau bape lama prosedur tu tp rasa mcm lama sgt. Siap ngan jahit lagi sekali. And sy tak suka doktor tu sbb she was kind of sarcastic sbb asik ckp 'contraction lagi sakit'. Hello! aku yg sakit ok, bukan ko!!! 

Lepas dah selesai, cik HB tanya doc what happened actually, she said since baby besar, masa proses kelahiran ada luka kat uterine wall, and luka tu dia x perasan masa dia selesaikan delivery process. Kitorg pon percaya aje la sbb dia kan specialist. Tapi cik HB pon kata dia tak suka doktor ni sbb cara dia ckp sungguh la tak friendly and kind of sarcastic. Actually kami pilih dia sbb nak doktor muslimah, tapi x sangka pulak jadi camni. Lepas tu, bila sembang2 ngan org lain yg berpengalaman, diorg kata what happened to me mungkin tumpah darah disebabkan darah beku tak dikeluarkan habis lepas proses kelahiran ataupun ada sisa uri yg tertinggal. Wallahualam, kalau doktor tu tipu kami apa yg jadi sebenarnya, hanya dia yg tahu. Mujur la no more keluar darah dgn byk. According to nurse, I lost about 800ml blood and mujur la HB sy drop at 9.9 and with that tak perlukan blood transfusion. Kalau x, tak pasal2 kena masuk darah pulak. 

Masa in recovery room, I was very weak and emotional. Sy nangis sbb teringatkan kesakitan yg amat itu dan ketakutan kot2 nyawa sy tak panjang, and sy tak dpt jumpa lagi anak2, cik HB dan famili sy yg lain. Sy terbayangkan baby yg baru lahir, yg baru sempat menyusu badan 2 kali sebelum keadaan kritikal itu. Dan sy lega sbb cik HB sentiasa ada by my side disaat2 kritikal itu. Dan dia juga yg menenangkan sy selepas itu, suapkan makanan dan minuman utk sy. Thanks my love!

Alhamdulilah, lepas tu keadaan sy makin ok. Cuma since sy kehilangan darah yg byk, sy tak boleh berdiri lama2. Nak pegi toilet pon kena berpimpin. The next day tu, dah boleh discharged and now I'm getting better walaupun muka still pucat lesi. Rasanya mau sebulan jugak kot masa diambil utk dpt pulihkan balik level darah in my body.

Sesungguhnya pengalaman bersalin kali ni mmg menginsafkan sy. Bukan nak kata masa bersalin kembar dulu tak sakit, sakit juga tapi for me bersalin secara caesarian tak sesakit bersalin secara normal. Maybe kalau x jadi complication tumpah darah tu, I won't be as emotional as I am now.

Baby @ 5 days

3 anak2 dara tersayang

Tapi setiap apa yg terjadi, pasti ada hikmahnya kan?

Saat Itu

Alhamdulilah, sy dah selamat melahirkan anak ketiga kami, a baby girl seberat 3.51kg pd 10.3.2012 jam 4.00 am. It was a fast delivery tp ada la jugak some drama yg akan dikenang sampai bila2.

The whole story: Hari Jumaat, 9.3.2012 tu sy rasa contraction sikit2. Dua hari sebelum ada tanda darah tp sgt sikit and mucuous plug pon semakin byk. Tapi x layan sgt sbb takut false alarm. Dua minggu sebelum tu, in week 38, sy dah ke hospital sbb cirit-birit dan rasa contraction. Tak la kuat sgt tp takut la kot2 betul tanda2 nak bersalin. Turned out, setelah diperiksa, sy takde contraction pon tp based on CTG, heartbeat baby adalah tinggi and because of diarrhea, sy demam sedikit dan dehydrated. So doktor suruh stay utk semalam on IV drip.

Tu yg bila rasa sakit sikit2 aje, malas nak layan. Lagipon before that asik berharap baby cepat lahir sampai rasa stress. Cik HB lak dok berharap baby lahir on 29/2, tarikh tahun lompat tapi  after day by day as EDD approaching, baby masih sedap dok dlm perut. So dok fikir selagi tak sakit yg betul2 sakit, xkan ku pegi ke hospital!

So back to hari jumaat tu, dlm dok rasa sakit2 perut tu, sy layan movie Lord of The Ring. By kul 11pm, rasa makin sakit, so sy stop tgk TV and baring atas katil and start timing the contraction. At the time, contraction mcm 15-10 minit sekali. Sy ckp ngan cik HB, maybe kita kena ke hospital mlm ni tapi tunggu la sampai contraction is like 5 minit gitu. By pukul 1 am, contraction was 6 minutes apart, so sy siap2 pakai baju tapi still x mo gi hospital lagi. Sy on TV and pegang jam. By kul 2pm, dah makin cepat, so sy gerak cik HB suh siap2 nak gi hospital. At 2.30 am, elok2 nak keluar rumah, air ketuban pecah. On the way ke hospital, mmg rasa sakit tak tertahan sbb contraction continuously. Mujur la jalan kosong, cuma tersangkut2 kat traffic light, tu pon cik HB on emergency light dan x tunggu traffic light. 15 minit dah sampai hospital, terus gi wad O&G, masuk labor room, nurse tukarkan baju, check segala & call doktor. Nurse kata opening dah 6cm and progress sgt cepat. Bila doktor sampai (I don't know the time), terus they prepare me for delivery and tau2 dah disuruh push. As this is my first normal delivery, mmg x reti la cara pernafasan yg betul. But I had 4 'cheerleaders' - 1 doktor, 2 nurses and cik HB by my side so try push mcm nak rak, akhirnya baby keluar pukul 4am. Bunyinya mmg mcm senang sbb masuk labor room kul 3 am, bersalin kul 4 am tp sakitnya Tuhan aje la yg tau. Dulu masa kembar, sy bersalin secara caesarian, so walaupun sempat merasa contraction, sakitnya x intense mcm ni. Then tanggung sakit lagi masa doktor keluarkan uri and then jahit episiotomy.

Fresh from the oven!

ololo...dah nangis dah...

Lepas settle tu semua, while still in labor room utk observation, nurse bagi baby yg dah dibersihkan dan disuruh breastfeeding. Baby is so good, sucking reflection dah ada cuma tak berapa pandai sgt nak menyusu. Kul 6am, setelah minum susu and mkn painkiller sy dimasukkan ke wad and nurse kata if everything is fine, petang nanti boleh discharge. Cik HB pon masa tu balik rumah dulu.

Ingat nak tido sbb rasa penat sgt tapi perut rasa sakit sgt2. Ring the nurse and tanya nape perut rasa sakit walaupun dah makan painkiller, dia kata sbb rahim tgh nak kecut, that is why sakit. Kul 7.30, nurse dtg dan disuruh pi toilet utk buang air kecil. Tapi pi toilet x kencing pon, cuma darah keluar berketul2. Pad dua helai totally soaked together ngan pelapik sekali. Tak sangka darah byk camtu but then I thought 'oh, maybe ni normal utk vaginal delivery kot'.