The Day My Twins Go to School....

Smlm hari pertama anak2 aku masuk sekolah or lebih tepat lagi tadika la kot. Dah berbulan2 we keep telling them that they are going to school to get them ready when the time comes. Sebelum ni pon masa dtg untuk register, dah bawa diorg ke tadika tu. Masa register diorg seronok sbb dapat main gelongsor, and ada playhouse suma kat situ. Since then, ari2 diorg akan ckp ' nak skolah, nak skolah'. Nabilah la yg paling excited pasal nak gi sekolah. Pagi2 bangun mesti sebut 'nak skolah' dulu. Kitorg pon rajin citer, bgtau dia kat sekolah ada buku, ada pen, ada nyanyi2 and dia akan senyum2 seronok. Last week, kitorg belikan beg Barbie sorang satu, lepas tu sikit pon x berenggang ngan beg. Hatta, nak keluar dinner outside pon, nangis2 nak bawa beg.

Pagi smlm, by 7.30 am aku dah gerakkan diorg bangun. Actually aku plan nak ikut hantar diorg sekali, so masuk la keje lambat sikit. Tapi pagi smlm aku rasa kepala cam ting tong sikit. Mmg the previous evening aku sakit kepala but normally kalau bangun pagi, dah ok. Pagi ni aku still rasa pusing2, so fikir2, amik MC je la. Lepas anta budak terus gi klinik.

Nabihah, just panggil2 je terus bangun. So aku uruskan dia dulu, mandikan dan pakaikan baju. Kesian dia sejuk2 kena mandi, menggigil dia. Aku la yg malas nak masak air.....kalau camni mcm kena pasang heater aje. Nabihah very cooperative, since aku bgtau dia that she's going to school. Sekejap je dah siapkan dia. Tapi Nabilah, siap marah lagi aku kejutkan dia dr tido. Dah bukak baju suma nak mandi, dia keraskan badan nak tido lg. Tapi usung je la masuk bilik air. Nangis lak tu masa mandi. Mmg la sejuk sikit tapi esok la mandikan ngan air panas. Biar tough sikit budak2 ni...hehehe.

Kul 8.30 am, kami sampai kat Pusat Perkembangan Kanak-Kanak Seri Bistari ( nama tadika tu). Sampai2, budak2 tu terus main gelongsor while aku n hb uruskan remaining payment utk pendaftaran. Dah pesan serba sedikit yg penting about the twins, it's time for us to leave them. So aku pon ckp la ' Dok sini ye, umi n abah pegi keje, ptg karang abah amik'. Nabilah terus terjun dr gelongsor n peluk hb aku. Nabihah looked ok, amin (salam n cium tgn) aku, aku pon kiss n hug dia. Bila teacher dia suh letak kasut kat shoes rack dia pon obediently buat. Tapi Nabilah peluk kaki hb aku sikit punya kuat. Teacher nak tarik pon x boleh. So aku pon dukung dia bawa masuk dalam tadika, hoping that bila dia tgk ada kawan ramai2, dia akan ok. Wrong! Bila masuk, aku nak letak dia kat bwh, lg dia cengkam badan aku kuat2 sambil melalak2 ngan volume yg boleh pekakkan telinga. Siap jerit 'Tak nak' sekuat hati. Tapi ada dua teacher tarik jugak la dia dari aku, kalau tak cemana? Takkan aku nak stay kat situ pulak. Kesian anak aku, tapi harap2 dia nangis x lama.

Lepas balik tadika, kitorg gi klinik utk dptkan MC. Main motive aku gi klinik utk dapatkan MC, not so much for medicine coz I thought it's just the normal headache. All I need is a good sleep. But then bila jumpa dr., she checked my blood pressure, surprisingly the reading is 148/97! She thought the digital device she used to get the reading is not accurate but the second reading also displayed the same figure. Yo! aku pon terkejut! Takkan kot umur cam aku ni dah nak kena darah tinggi kot. Dr tu pon kata, at my age, my blood pressure should not be that high. Ayoo..... Anyway dr said it's not high blood pressure stage yet but on the verge on getting it! She said she will not prescribed any hypertension medicine but I have to be alert on my condition. It's like having alarm signal...nenong...nenong...(the ambulance's siren like sound). Dr advised that I should come again for consultation to discuss on my condition as today she said I need to be on rest. Sounds so serious, isn't it? Makes me so scared... But to think back, high blood pressure indeed runs in my family as my father also has it and apparently my 33-year old brother also has developed it and now looks like I'm joining the club...not something u can proud of ok! I don't know what trigger this problem besides it is a genetic disease. It could be my horrible eating habit, could be stress on the job I have or could be anything. Well, need to get more info on hypertension.....

Coming back home, I took a long nap in the afternoon but still woke up with mild headache. Felt like lying down on the bed as long as I could but that time, the twins were also home, picked up by my husband. Hubby ckp, teacher diorg ckp Nabilah nangis lama pagi tadi masa kami pergi. Well, knowing Nabilah, what to expect.....I just hope that she'll be ok by tomorrow.

This morning, when I was on my way to work, husband called and said Nabilah still wailing at school when he went off. Nabilah..Nabilah...bila lah nak ok ni?

Happy New Year!

2008 tiba akhirnya. Tapi aku rasa pelik sikit ari ni sbb kena keje. Ye la, all this while aku keje kat KL yg memang cuti on New Year. aku x pernah tau pon yg Johor mmg x cuti on New Year. Though aku penah sekolah kat Muar tapi aku rasa sambutan New Year mmg x penah ada kot coz selalunya sekolah start lepas 1 Januari. Nasib baik clerk opis ni sound awal2 kat aku New Year x cuti...kalu x sedap aje la aku tido kat umah. Dah la smlm mmg amik cuti jaga anak. Kesian hubby aku dok umah cuti2 cenggini jaga budak2. Tapi ni bukan first time. Dulu pon masa dok KL, aku keje dlm territory KL tapi hubby aku keje dlm territory Selangor. Selangor dah la manjang ada cuti umum, KL lak kedekut cuti, so selalu la kitorg x dpt cuti sesama. Tah bila la kitorg ni dpt keje satu negeri.

Smlm since aku cuti jaga budak, aku praktis jadik surirumah tangga sepenuh masa. Actually sama je cam weekend aku stay umah buat keje but this one stay at home with kids and husband goes to work. Pagi2 bangun buat breakfast utk hubby, the n bg anak2 mkn, pastu sambung buta keje2 umah. Pastu masak lunch, layan hubby mkn lunch, bg mkn anka2, then sambung buat keje2 rumah, pastu buat minum ptg...huh! pendek kata mmg endless routine la....so sapa2 yg kata jadik suri rumah ni keje senang, mmg nak kena pelangkung la. Anyway, aku suka...sbb senang hati tgk rumah teratur, maybe suka la sbb bukan hari2....kalau ari2 mau jelak gak aku buat keje rumah.

Masa mkn malam hubby tanya "amacam dok rumah? Ok?" Apa punya soalan daa.......

The Gosselin Family

Gosselin Family

Gambar keluarga di atas xde kena mengena ngan aku tapi aku dah jatuh cinta ngan kisah keluarga Gosselin ni eversince aku tgk first dokumentari diorg kat Discovery Home & Health Channel of 'Surviving of Twins and Sextuplets'. Aku rasa bukan aku saja suka tgk kisah family diorg ni, ramai lg kot sbb after that first dokumentari, keluar pulak dokumentari kedua and now dah become a reality tv show, Jon & Kate Plus 8 with bape episodes tah kat DHH yg ditayangkan pada hari Rabu kul 9 pm.

Kisah keluarga Gosselin ni jadi tumpuan coz diorg ada anak kembar pompuan yg skrg berumur 7 thn dan KEMBAR 6 ( 3 boys and 3 girls) berumur 3 tahun. Well, actually the twins and sextuplets were not all conceived in natural manner but all thru fertility treatment as the mother, Kate has ovarian syndrome problems. Rupanya dalam treatment 'tabung uji' ni, beberapa telur dan sperma yg telah disenyawakan ( called follicles) di luar akan di tanam kedalam rahim coz possibility utk these 'follicles' berjaya develop didalam rahim amat kurang. Dalam kes Kate, terdapat 7 follicles di tanam, cuma 1 follicle saja gagal berkembang. Meaning she has 6 babies in her belly. Though dr,. cadangkan 'reduction' dilakukan utk mengurangkan jumlah bayi dalam kandungan, this couple refuse to do it and choose to proceed with all six babies. And the beautiful part, the sextuplets are 3 boys and 3 girls....nice number, huh? Kuasa Allah s.w.t....Kate delivered the sextuplets at 26 weeks. Walaupun lahir pramatang, all six babies survived and grow healthily. Semua comel2 belaka.

I think what people impressed with this family, is because they take care all the 8 children on their own. Takde maid, xde parents yg duduk sekali tolong diorg. Jon, the father works (as what I don't know) from7 am to 7 pm. And Kate stays at home to take care the 8 children by herself. But she's one organized person that I've ever met ( I mean thru the her shows that I've watched). Even DHH labels her as super organized mum. Her house looks neat and clean ( if just for one show I believe it's just to show off but the TV crews are there most of them, so it proves that it's her way of living - house must clean). Kate has her own way of organizing life. She labels everything.There's even a chart showing her children's sitting arrangement on the dining table! And her twins also has adopted the organizing habits...how effective! But between all the chaos in the house, she still looks good for a mum of 8 children. When the first documentary came out, the twins were 4 years old and there was a scene where one twin read...so aku tertanya2 bila la masa dia ajar anak2 dia membaca. Dalam episod realiti tv show pulak, now Kate tgh toilet train the 3 girls. It seems dia berjaya train the girls guna potty. Jelesnya aku sbb aku pon penah try nak toilet train kembar tu tapi penat weh, asik bertabur aje n aku asik nak mop lantai. Last2 give up, pakai la diapers balik.

Having twins myself, and remembering the days when they were babies, changing diapers, feeding, bathing, when they were sick and now as toddlers, to handle the fights and all kind of things, I know how much work to do. And with that, multiply the effort three times ( 3 pairs of twins!) and not forgetting the twins girls.... gee...it really requires physical and mental strength. Jon and Kate Gosselin are one tough parents indeed!

I miss my children....

I didn't bake cheesecake last nite, in fact when I arrived home last nite, I didn't do anything productive for my house. I came back quite late, around 9 pm after going round and round Jusco until I got tired. At least I've bought some stuffs and managed to buy a wedding present for my old friend..his wedding is on this Sunday. It's a wooden cabinet which he has to assemble it on his own...I know guys like this Handy-Manny stuff (if u are watching Disney Playhouse, u know what I'm talking about :) )

Actually my house is in a mess although the twins are not around. Now I know who is the culprit that actually contributes to the mess.....it's my husband daa....Since this week I don't do much cooking (I think the last time I used the stove is two days ago to boil water) so I hardly go to the kitchen. Apparently my husband has stocked up dirty cups on the dining table....gosh! and he got away from washing them by going outstation! I was thinking to clean up the kitchen, wash the dirty cups, put the rubbish outside, fold all recently washed clothes, finish up laundry and arrange the miserable newspapers which he just left on the hall but I just didn't have the drive to it. If I were in that reality tv show 'Perfect Housewives', I have just done a crime! I just didn't care and to ease the guilt feeling, I told myself that it's just this once in a blue moon time I'm lazed around. By the time twins are back, I'm also back to my normal endless routines....huhuhu.

I watched "Amazing Race Asia" which I haven't watched for many years (again it's because of having kids) with peace. Most of the time, my 'watching-tv' session is always 2 in 1 tasks by doing chores in between. It's either folding clothes or feeding the children but most of the time is folding clothes. Or even if I'm not doing any chores, it will always disturbed by having to check twins' activities when they suddenly disappear from my eyes or entertaining them when they are asking for milk/water. Last nite, I even stayed up until 1 am watching 'American Next Top Model' then continued with AFC channel. On normal days, by 10 pm, I am forced by the twins to be on the bed, doing the at least 10 minutes bedtime stories/singing session until they go to sleep and of course with me fall asleep together. So I always miss those tv shows with aired above 10 pm.

Am I complaining about having kids? No, I'm not complaining...actually though without the kids, I can enjoy doing many things, things that you don't get to do or don't have time to do when the kids are around, I feel like two parts of me is missing. And how I miss the noises they are making, the messy toys thrown all over the places , the crying, the whining, the hugs n kisses, the repeated questions of 'apa tu?' I even switched to Disney Playhouse channel on and off and when I came across their favorite tv shows, I also watched it for a while. It's so difficult when we get separated from the children. And with this feeling, I can't imagine the sadness of Nurin Jazlin's parents on losing her. Semoga mereka tabah........

4 Days to 2008...Countdown Begins

Seems like December has been a month of blogging for me....wallaa.....I mean considering the previous months eversince I've started blogging, December is the month with highest no. of posts....I'm so proud of myself.....hehehe. Guess it's just the mood and the free time that I have and the drive as well...I just feel like blogging every day.

And now it's end of the year and I'm counting days to 2008. Not that I'm excited about the new year but beginning of 2 January 2008, my twins are going to 'school'. So I can't wait for the day to come. It's another stage of growing up for them - learning to be on their own with new friends. And since it's new year, and people start talking on their new year's things to achieve or target kind of list, so I should have mine too, though for me everyday is a fresh start.

What do I want for 2008 ?
Career wise:

• That my Bekok Dam project to be completed by early next year. Or even if it delayed again, my boss is leaving for another job (he's a contract staff who normally will leave at the end of the project if he could secure another job)
• That my HQ will offer me another site position for project in Melaka when this damn project finish so I don't have to commute from Melaka to KL daily.
• Or I get a contract job which pays me as much or higher that I earn now and I can quit when I need to quit (ada ke keje camni?)

Family wise:

• That I can spend more time sitting with the twins, read to them, play with them. I'm thinking to start teaching them to read by next year. But between job n house chores, will I manage that?
• That I can run my house hold more efficiently, with house free of dust, dirty laundry, nice looking yard, bla...bla..bla...
• That I can do gardening, I could plant lemon grass, banana tree, turmeric, curry leave which I need in my cooking. I hate it when I have to buy those leaves from market, n I only use probably 1-2 slices, keep it in the fridge n few days later it turns brown and I have to throw it away. Such a waste......

In person:

• That I will lose weight!!! I don't know how long I've been fussing and fretting on losing weight but still fail to loose any, but I don't care....I'll keep fussing and fretting until I can see some progress.
  
• That I will improve my physical look coz I've noticed eversince getting married n have kids, I've lost the passion on looking good. I must change my attitude. I'll take care my skin, I'll reward myself with nice clothes.
  
• That I am stress-free. I'm not going to feel down if people around me irritate me.
  
• That I could recite Quran everyday....even for only a page.
  
• That I will get more friends in Melaka....hoping that I could mix around with my husband's friends' wives.

My husband:

• That his plan to further study is running smoothly.
• That he's going to achieve good result for IELTS
• That he's helping more with house chores....hehehe

See...that's why I don't want to list it down coz I know it will be a long list. But anyway, it always nice to have a list so we can plan accordingly and we could keep focus on our target. Hope it will be another year of achievement.

Another Lousy Movie.....

Malam tadi aku n hubby kluar tgk wayang lagi....hehehe. Actually aku nak tgk citer "Enchanted" sbb ramai dok war2kan movie ni best. So sementara kitorg jadik org bujang ni, why not take the opportunity. But hubby told me when he checked movie time, "Enchanted" xde show malam. Show siang aje. Ala....but then thinking that if we stay at home, we'll miss the twins very much or we will fight for the TV (like previous nite), we have decided to watch any movie available. Ada beberapa movies yg hubby mention.....National Treasures 2 ( x mau...sbb aku x bape suka ngan Nicholas Cage, poyo je dia tu), Alien vs. Predator (hish...boring dah citer2 camni) and I Am Legend. So aku pilih I Am Legend though aku x tau citernye cemana tapi sbb Will Smith kira ok la. Since movie start kul 10.15 pm n kitorg sampai kul 9.00 pm, gi ronda2 Jusco. End up aku beli lagi baju utk twins (shouldn't go that Power Puff Girls boutique....so many nice clothes for kids) . Beli baju utk diri sendiri kedekut, asik2 anak yg dapat....untungnya anak2 aku.

"I Am Legend" turned out to be not-that-nice movie. Coz it's too thrilled and tensed. And hero is dead at the end of the movie...(woi, ingat citer bollywood ke nak happy ending suma?). But even my hubby also shared the same opinion. Berat kepala aku pas tgk citer tu. Dua ari in a row tgk movie, dua2 movie bad selection. Should have watched 'Enchanted" yesterday instead of "The Golden Compass".

Today, hubby is off to KL for two days and that means I'm left alone tonite. Lama dah aku x pernah dok rumah sorang2. N thinking that on left and right, even the front houses are not occupied and small jungle behind my house, makes me feel quite bad. So I'm planning not to go home straight after coming back from office. Aku nak ronda2 dulu kat Jusco sampai rasa penat so that balik rumah aku senang nak tidur. And I'll buy stuffs for baking cheesecake (I've been thinking to bake cheesecake since the twins are not around) so if can't sleep, I'll bake cheesecake!

N hubby menambahkan lagi suspen aku ngan pesanan "Make sure semua pintu n tingkap berkunci, pintu bilik pon kunci. Kalau dgr apa2 jgn gi tgk, buat tak tau aje". Boleh tak? Baru je the previous nite jam dinding kitorg yg dah giler tu tetiba berbunyi2 tgh malam. Aku paksa hubby gi tgk, so dia just take off the bateri. Harus malam ni aku take off bateri jam tu sesiap. Kang dibuatnya berbunyi, x k haru aku nak gi check? Kalu biar lak, memekak pulak..lg la suspen. Abis, kalau dah buang bateri bunyi gak? Hish...stop urself from thinking ridiculously ok........

Yay!...It's Public Holiday Again

Semalam another public holiday (bestnya kalau tiap2 minggu ada public holiday :) ) n since the twins are outstation (hehehe...selalunya mak bapak yg outstation, ni anak2 lak yg outstation) aku n hubby mmg dah plan nak kuar gi tgk wayang. Aku dah lama ngidam nak tgk 'The Golden Compass' coz aku dgr citernya ala2 Lord of the Ring. Sebenarnya rasa gak bersalah keluar bersukaria ngan anak2 tinggal kat kampung. Tapi diorg dihantar balik kampung coz this week xde org yg boleh jaga diorg kat Melaka. Next week baru stat anta diorg ke school.

Kitorg gi Mahkota Parade n dapat tiket 'The Golden Compass' kul 12.20 noon though kami samapi situ dalam kul 12 noon. Teringat aku zaman2 tgk wayang kat KL dulu...kalau x reserve tiket, main gamble beratur nak beli dah dekat2 show nak start, jarang la dapat unless kalau movie tu x popular boleh la. Pulak tu kalau kat KLCC beratur sikit punya panjang. Kat Mahkota Parade ni beratur kejap aje.

'The Golden Compass' though is a fantasy adventure movie but it's not up to my expectation. That's what happen when you keep compare it ngan Lord of the Ring. Nampaknya TGC ni cam ada sequel lagi, coz ending nya tergantung begitu shj. Tu yg aku x suka sbb LOTR though mmg ada sambungan, but each movie tgk mmg puas hati la. Apa la diorg ni, semua sibuk nak buat sequel. At least Narnia is much better. Harap2 the 2nd sequel of Narnia which will come out next year is good. Sbb selalunya (except for LOTR) the sequel turns out to be boring cam Pirates of Caribbean. Hish...aku ni dah bunyi cam movie reviewer dah, padahal tgk movie setahun sekali pon belum tentu :).

Lepas tgk wayang, kitorg ronda2 kat Parkson. Aku ingat nak survey skincare product coz the current skincare product that I've been using doesn't improve my skin condition ( dah pakai Olay aje...what do u expect?). Nak gi kaunter SKII, aku seriau tgk harga2 brg dia. Though aku dgr hasilnya sgt berkesan ( tgk aje la iklan2 dia) n dr testimoni rakan2 yg dah menggunakannya, tapi for me to spend that much of money, oh...rasanya tak sanggup. Surprisingly, my hubby encouraged me to review it first, try2 product dia ke. Aku ckp malas...ingat nak survey cam Clinique or Bioterm. At least Clinique tu aku tau rate harga dia cemana, though consider mahal tapi x la semahal SKII tu.

Baru je jenguk2 kat kaunter Clinique, staff dia dah invite aku duduk. Hish...kalau dah duduk2 ni dah consider serius nak beli. Walaupun sebenarnya it's up to us nak beli ke tak, cemana baik pon dia entertain kita tapi based on my experience sebelum ni, kalau dah go thru consultation tu mesti aku beli punya la. Bila aku ckp aku tgh survey skincare, minah Clinique tu terus analysis kulit aku. Masalahnya ngan kulit aku skrg walaupun dah x berjerawat, tapi warna kulit x sekata, pastu asik berminyak, n then byk tul white and black head. Then pores pon nampak besar. Nak2 dah dok kat site, kengkadang aku berjemur bwh panas, so kulit dah mcm terbakar. Before aku dtg site aku guna Artistry, Amway, which was good for my skin (this one pon cost me a bomb tapi last long). Tapi since it is a direct selling product and aku dah malas nak bayar membership fee utk amway, tambah pulak ejen Amway yg ku kenali ada di KL, so aku malas la nak continue ngan Artistry. Pada firasat aku, apa la salah nya aku guna aje product2 Olay aje. Kan ke Datuk Siti Nurhaliza kata produk Olay bagus utk kulit dia ( yo la tu....ntah betul ke tidak dia pakai Olay). Most importantly, aku nak pakai Olay sbb boleh jimat duit aku. Tapi tu la, bila aku pakai Olay, kulit aku jadi dull n mcm2 hal. Agaknya dah biasa pamperkan kulit ngan benda mahal, so kulit aku pon reject la benda2 kurang mahal...hish..hish.

So thru consultation ngan minah Clinique dia pon explain la bla..bla...produk mana aku kena pakai utk repair balik kulit aku ni. Ada la kot dalam 7-8 brg aku kena guna utk my skin care regime. So aku tanya, semua2 tu harga dia berapa. Dia pon mula tap2 calculator n showed me the figure. Mak datuk....semuanya dalam RM700 lebih.....kuang...kuang...kuang. Gilos aku nak spend byk tu demi kecantikan. Tu kalau betul terbukti berkesan, kalau tak....

Tapi biasa la, org berniaga sure nak promote brg2 dia. So aku hanya tanya quotation utk 3 benda utama, cleanser, toner n moisturizer. Yang itu harganya affordable, even aku tanya hubby cemana, dia kata beli lah. Tapi hubby aku bagus la, dia dok potpet2 ngan minah tu, asik tanya xde ke brg free, end up minah tu bg aku sample brg2 lain yg dia demo kat aku tp aku x beli mcm make-up remover, SPF sunblock, pore minimiser. Even bg miniature perfume and foundation lagik. Tu pon hubby aku pas bayar, complained that we should ask for more. Aku sebenarnya rasa bersalah spent duit byk2 on this stuff. But my hubby said I shouldn't coz I suppose to treat it as a reward to myself (I've just got this year bonus...yey! But I'm planning to save it). He said, if he himself can afford it, he would give it as a present to me. Ye ke? So aku ckp dia kena stick with that promise coz if I'm no longer working, he needs to sponsor me with these Clinique stuffs...padan muka, hahaha.....

Balik tu x sabar2 aku men'try' skincare baru aku. Bila basuh muka, rasa sensasi je muka (ke perasaan aku jek?). Tapi each n every item, especially yg sample2 tu aku guna ciput aje, nak jimat punya pasal. Harap2 boleh last long. N pastikan semuanya di letakkan di ketinggian yg tak tercapai dek anak2 aku. (Nabihah pernah tuangkan toner Artistry aku, waaa.....nasib la dalam suku jek dia tuang).

So inilah citer org pompuan ek...dalam dok kedekut2 nak spend duit utk diri sendiri, at last spend jugak. Mahal kos nak cantik ni...ni baru beli skincare product, belum lagi yg buat facial, buat spa, slimming course suma. Sungguh menggunakan duit yg byk. Tu la keperluan materialistik, it would never enough.