Of Negative Feelings

Of late I have noticed I don't really have shield over negative feelings. I am easily annoyed over small issues; people unpleasant remarks, don't get domestic help (guess who's to blame?), the twins's tantrums, failed recipes.....

Hmm...am I getting cranky?

Of course when I'm annoyed, it doesn't mean I will throw a tantrum as well (like hempas brg2 or membebel yg bukan2) , but it does affect my mood and mind. And that surely is not good for one's health, right?

Take for an example; there's one guy in my Deutsch course (a Turkish to be exact) who always make fun of me whenever I speak in Deutsch. I don't understand why he teases me when he himself is not good enough in Deutsch. Just because you are popular in the class, it doesn't mean you get the credit to make fun of other people, you turkey! (please understand correctly: Cambridge Dictionaries define 'turkey' as a stupid or silly person, not because he's from Turkey!)

And his female companion, who also thinks she's the best in the class because she speaks fluent Deutsch compared to others (yeah, she's been living in Deutschland for more than 10 years, but only now she takes up the course) made a comment that although I'm quite good in writing and grammar lesson (yep, I'm not bragging but Lukas had said the same thing in the class) I couldn't speak the right accent of Deutsch. I was dumbfounded....if only I could talk back in Deutsch. Too bad these two turkeys can't understand English, otherwise I would slash back at them.....but that would make me equally stupid, huh?

The scene had bothered me for the rest of the day and caused the lack of my attention to the lesson. I know theoretically I should have just ignored what they have said. As a long as I know what I have achieved and want to achive, I shouldn't be bothered, right? But I failed to do just that....

To other Turkish, if you happen to read this, please don't get annoyed with the above writings ok! I don't mean to be racist, I know there are other good Turkish out there and this kind of behaviour doesn't mark by the race or the citizen.

I guess I should learn from this quote:

"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense."

–– Ralph Waldo Emerson

It's good to be positive, eh?