Snow Again

When I thought winter is about to come to the end, this morning I woke up to a white scenary. There must be heavy snow downpour last night. And I contemplated, whether to go to school or not. But then thinking that in 2 weeks time I would quit this Deutsch course, I chose to go.

The twins were happy to see the snow and refused to ride in the kinderwagen (stroller). So walking to Bahnhof (train station) took such a long time with them stopping several times to play in the snow. The result, I arrived to class one hour late than usual...hmm...

After the class finished, it was still snowing but maybe it wasn't cold enough, the snow turned into rain before it touched the ground. Snow, when it falls in the heavy, flaky white forms, looks so beautifully white but when it becomes rain, and falls on the already snowy ground, it creates watery, slippery and dirty road. So dragging the twins in this condition, is an absolute challenge to me. Luckily dear cik HB came back from his school early and when I came out from my school, he was there waiting.

And I'm relieved that starting tomorrow to Friday, I'm not taking the twins with me. CIk HB will be at home....yeay!

Sleeping Arrangement

I am now trying to make the twins sleep in their own room. Our bed could no longer occupy the four of us comfortably.

So far the mission is still not accomplised....

In order to convince them to sleep in their room, after the before-sleep routines (reading story books, singing, talking, saying doa) I sleep with them too and then would quietly walk out from the room in the middle of the night (kalau aku sedar la...kalau x berlayar la sampai pagi).

The problem is, Nabilah (who mmg the clinging type since she was a baby) would always wake up after I leave and when she notices that I'm not around, she would cry. Some tips I got; just ignore her cries and instead of going to her, let her come to me.

But Nabilah is the type who cries with her high-pitched voice and wouldn't move unless I come to her. So if I let her be, she would wake her sister up (Nabihah normally sleeps soundly throughout the night unless she is disturbed) and worse, probably would wake the neighbours up too!

So parents, tell me....how can I make this work out?

Of Negative Feelings

Of late I have noticed I don't really have shield over negative feelings. I am easily annoyed over small issues; people unpleasant remarks, don't get domestic help (guess who's to blame?), the twins's tantrums, failed recipes.....

Hmm...am I getting cranky?

Of course when I'm annoyed, it doesn't mean I will throw a tantrum as well (like hempas brg2 or membebel yg bukan2) , but it does affect my mood and mind. And that surely is not good for one's health, right?

Take for an example; there's one guy in my Deutsch course (a Turkish to be exact) who always make fun of me whenever I speak in Deutsch. I don't understand why he teases me when he himself is not good enough in Deutsch. Just because you are popular in the class, it doesn't mean you get the credit to make fun of other people, you turkey! (please understand correctly: Cambridge Dictionaries define 'turkey' as a stupid or silly person, not because he's from Turkey!)

And his female companion, who also thinks she's the best in the class because she speaks fluent Deutsch compared to others (yeah, she's been living in Deutschland for more than 10 years, but only now she takes up the course) made a comment that although I'm quite good in writing and grammar lesson (yep, I'm not bragging but Lukas had said the same thing in the class) I couldn't speak the right accent of Deutsch. I was dumbfounded....if only I could talk back in Deutsch. Too bad these two turkeys can't understand English, otherwise I would slash back at them.....but that would make me equally stupid, huh?

The scene had bothered me for the rest of the day and caused the lack of my attention to the lesson. I know theoretically I should have just ignored what they have said. As a long as I know what I have achieved and want to achive, I shouldn't be bothered, right? But I failed to do just that....

To other Turkish, if you happen to read this, please don't get annoyed with the above writings ok! I don't mean to be racist, I know there are other good Turkish out there and this kind of behaviour doesn't mark by the race or the citizen.

I guess I should learn from this quote:

"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense."

–– Ralph Waldo Emerson

It's good to be positive, eh?

Do you miss something you thought you would not be missing?

I do. I miss my job.

Yesterday I helped cik HB preparing his lab report and having to read and analyse the electrical single line diagram made me missing all the works I've done before.

Well, I guess it is just human being's attitude; when you were doing the same thing everyday, you find it boring and uninteresting. And when you don't get to do it anymore, somehow you miss it. How strange it is, isn't it?

Or is it just the sympton of career-woman-turn-into-housewife?

Family Extension

Recently we have received so many happy news of our family back home.

First of all, my elder sister is expecting her fourth child. Then we were informed that cik HB's sister (one of the twins) got engaged on the CNY holidays. Her wedding will be on this coming June. So we are going to miss two family weddings this year. His another sister is also getting married in December.

My younger sister who was so darn worried that she was still not pregnant after, hmm....7 months of being married (and planning to see a gynaecologist to check whether she's having problem conceiving, despite she has been married less than a year!) has popped the news last week that she too, is expecting!!! Guess my mother is going to be busy this year.....

Oh! My MIL will be much much busier! Along with the two weddings take place this year, my other SIL (one of the twins who got married last year) is going to deliver her first child sometime in June too!

And to top-up with all the above great news, my BIL's wife (what do you call biras in English?) is five weeks pregnant. She and my BIL have been married for 7 years but have yet to be blessed with any kids. If I'm not mistaken, she had two miscarriages before. So hopefully everything is going to be fine with this pregnancy.

Well, year 2009 is indeed an extension year of our families. 4 new babies and two son-in-laws....hmm, what a recruitment!

Too bad we are not there to join the merriment.

New Therapy

I found a new therapy when I'm angry, or upset or stressful......

Go for a walk!

Walk as much as you can while tending your anger or stress or sadness. It really channels the negative feelings into energy. And after a while, those feelings subside and you get some exercise. Good eh? It saves you from negative behavior like 'nak pecahkan pinggan ke' or 'mengamuk kat anak2 ke'.

But make sure the neighbourhood is save enough for you to walk alone la!

Desperate Housewife?

No, no...I'm not talking about the tv series.

I'm talking about me being a housewife now. A new career I've ventured since 6 months ago....and how I have realized now that being housewife is not that easy.

While I was working, I longed to be at home full time, spending time with my kids, having my house in organized manner and super clean, foods are home-made (we used to eating out that time), gardening, you know... like Bree Van de Kamp of Desperate Housewives.

Now I am a housewife but I'm not exactly of the housewife type I thought I would be.

Yeap, I clean, I cook, I wash routinely but it is just never ending task. The living hall is neat in probably half an hour after cleaning....then it'll mess up again. The laundry basket is full all the time, though I do laundry every two days. The sink probably is shining for a day, then it'll always full with dirty plates and cups. Not to mention the never-ending demands of the two girls asking for various things.

And I haven't start any home-schooling with the girls......

Basically the thought that by becoming a housewife I would have more leisure time, is definitely NOT true, ok!

Most of the time, by the end of the day, I'm feeling so exhausted.

My friend has complained how seldom she sees me on YM or even if YM shows I'm online, I'm not exactly online.

Last week, I tried baking chocolate cake, I ended up having the batter thrown. It happened TWICE! I didn't know why, it's the same recipe I've done in Malaysia, but it just didn't work out. I almost gave on baking but on last Sunday, I made the third attempt using another recipe I got from Internet and thank God, it came out ok! I'm just grateful it turned out ok or I would definitely think that I'm a loser.

What does it take to be a Martha Stewart?